Wednesday, August 31, 2005
im gonna prove to my friends i can stick to this job for at least one month. i know i can do it. =). dont xiao kan wo k.
anyway tmr is teachers' day and fel fel's bday. =).
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY FEL FEL!!!
both in advance. =).
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
jw woke me up at 12. met her and yk at 2+. went to town. i tell you it was a pathetic trip to town. only went there for ramen ten. LOL. after that went jw's place. mahjong mahjong! haha.
there we just nice 4 girls 4 boys. the guys all can play mahjong. the girls? only ss can. LOL. so me willie and jw learnt. caught abit ball. haha. it can be quite fun. =). i wanna learn and improve on my lousy mahjong skills.
had pizza for dinner. yums. now im having tummyache. haha. opps.
lazy le lah. tata.
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it's about showering the TLC and being showered. it's a nice feeling but i just dont have the chance to feel this way. so sad right?
anyway i also dont just want any kinda bf. i want somebody PERFECT. like joven. =))). too bad he is history. ok. shuppud amanda. just keep your mouth shut about joven alright.
let me list out the boyfriend i want.
first, i want him one year older than me. i dont want anymore same age. will die.
second, i want him to know how to talk. must know when to joke, when to get serious. and must be able to cheer me up when im sad.
third, respect my decision always. when i dont wanna meet means i dont want. when i want means must meet. abit asshole lah but im like that.
should be as simple as this lah. when i can think of more then i'll update again.
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Monday, August 29, 2005
mango
i just click well with you. =). perhaps we are the only girls in class who scold vulgarities? haha. we even share the same sensitive name. i mean how many girls would share the same sensitive name? =). well, in our group only got 2 girls and that's you and me. now that im gone, you're gonna be alone with the guys. i believe it's gonna be just as fun.
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peng
sorry about the chocolate thingy, causing you to be late for class. =x. guess that chocolate wasnt really for me. or maybe it didnt like me. i couldnt be your burden for long. i know you must be glad right? haha. well, thanks for helping me whenever i had problems with my assignments. also for accompanying me on the phone when i was frightened. =). dont always sleep late when you know you will be late for school.
patrick
your wish finally came true. i drop out le. haha. it's time you drop out too. lol. joking lah. study hard alright. i know you can do it one. anyway, thank you for letting me be your burden. =). msn chat with you can really be fun. you made me realise how imperfect life is. and for god's sake, stop asking me to marry and give birth. im still young ok!
EXCUSE ME! YOU SAID YOU TOO A PIC WITH ME LE BUT I DONT HAVE IT!!!
wilson
laughing at your hair was what i couldnt stop doing at the start. haha. i dunno why but i just find it funny. now if you cut funny hairstyles nobody will laugh at you already. thank you for offering help to me when i got probs with my assignment. =))). it was very nice of you to try being my burden. LOL. study hard potential kid.
kelvin
damn you! can you stop disturbing me? anyway you looked nice in formal wear. you are the next potential student who will be withdrawing lah. didnt hand in this didnt hand in that. skip this class skip that class. sure die one lah. go sell your drinks at fisherman lah. lol. joking. work hard lah!
wee
stop smoking can? and can you give a miss to the visits to the toilet whenever you are in lab/tutorial? do you really have that much to shit? lol. anyway, hopefully things between you and denise can work out well. =). oh yah. can you pls be less camera shy?
i promise i'll visit you all in tp whenever im free k. make ourselves free one day to go over to fisherman to slack, pasta mania to eat and many other activities we wanted to do last time. i wanna see all of you present k. the 6 of you. take care. <3.
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Saturday, August 27, 2005
went clubbing. i had fun, i swear. except for the damn fact that we had to queue farking long to get in. -.-". oh my oh my. it really was tiring. yawns. the queue like didnt move. perhaps due to the cutting of queue? i dunno lah. well, had some trouble today. coz lockers were all taken. didnt have our own locker so they had to hold on to their bags. bags are our dancing burden. so sad. was dying to go to the dancefloor!!! and yay! managed to go. pig and amy took turns to pei me dance. i made sure denneth [spelt like this right? =x.] didnt leave. if not im like alone. nobody else i know was around plus potato was like in the world of his own. it's so long since i had this happening feel again. im glad. =).
oh yah. when i got off the cabbie when heading to club, a few guys were like "eh, from tp arh?" then i didnt bother. and yah! sushen left her ezlink inside the cabbie k! luckily i turned back to see if anything was left behind. and then those people got on that cabbie then from there, they called my name. i was like wtf. i dont even know who they are. -.-".
another happy thing happened
btw, mango wrote me a testi
i just wanna say, yesterday was the best day of 2005. FOR ME.
<3 my gfs. <3 my classmates.
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Friday, August 26, 2005
surprisingly i still can log in with my id huh? haha. well. im with my classmates now. hugged mango just now. told her i drop out and her eyes went red. very sad too. controlling my tears. shall update photos later.
<3, i will miss my classmates.
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
i wish im loved.
i yearn for the love.
love me leh.
can somebody just make my heart beat? love me if you want my love back. BUT terms and conditions apply.
i want to get into a stable relationship that can last me at least 100 days. obviously, if possible, i want it longer. i seriously wanna be in love, again. i want flings no more. i will make it a serious relationship, if that guy is worth it. =).
love me for who i am. dont expect me to change.
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my whole mind is in a mess now. im not as happy as i seem to be. neither am i as depressed as my expression reveals. im just not myself. many things are running thru my mind. i think im breaking down soon.
luckily ytd i went home after leaving 136. thanks to me promising mom that i'll be back home for dinner. if not i swear i'll cry. coz i'll miss the lizzie mcguire movie. it's nice k. =). it's the FIRST time i ever finished watching the entire movie. it always was watching abit here and there but never the whole of it. im glad. =).
have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
it's high time i start planning about my future. i must dream and work towards my dream. if not i think i will go and die lor. grrr. aiyah. i dunno lah. it's like so pointless to live on if im gonna have a farked up future. tell me what to do.
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Monday, August 22, 2005
sian. im bored ttm. i want a perfect boyfriend to care for me. somebody be my bf and be perfect too, please. =). haha. im mad.
well well. im having this sudden tummyache. dunno why but guess it's the time of the month in a few days time. should be too lah. i hate the feeling but i cant do anything to it. im useless lah. i mean everyone else is useless too. coz no one can do anything abt having periods. lalas.
i think patrick, wilson and kelvin can all drop out le lah. LOL. esp kelvin lah. for being the first to getting warning letter. all 3 of them cant be bothered to do nmm, just like me. muahahaha. i hate projects, remember? plus patrick and wilson have the thoughts of dropping out too. haha. they say it's my fault. im the bad influence to them. muahahaha. am i? i dont think so.
after dropping out i will go work i guess till next year then see what i really want. at least give myself time to settle down and think properly abt what i really want. i believe it's better than repeating this sem. i know i have to coz i haven done any projects yet. well, at least those final ones. so, what for? i dont wanna waste any more time in this course le.
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Sunday, August 21, 2005
i just hope this hiccup thing can just go away. for real and for good. =).
ytd was supposed to be my so the dramathon but i fell asleep after watching the first episode. woke up just in time to catch so the drama. after that was boring. i practically was staring into space wondering what to do. ended up watching tv till almost 1. went to bed and woke up today at 1. 12 hours of sleep, finally. =).
then this
i want a more happening life!
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
ok. shant brood over it.
i tell you. i hate my life. sometimes i really wish i can dont be at home. obviously i can lah. but im lazy to coz of my laziness. oh man. wtf. sometimes it's oso becoz of cartoon then i stay home. but deep down i wish i wasnt home. at least i wont need to hear so much noise and nobody will piss me off.
perhaps i should just be alone. move out and blablabla. i wish. im daydreaming you see. or rather i should say if can marry off now. LOL. im crazy lah. you should know im not thinking this way. im just thinking of alternatives lah. maybe i should start working soon then save the money to rent a room to myself. it sounds nice. but i know it wont be lah. haha. im mad.
i wanna be pampered. can someone shower me TLC?
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Thursday, August 18, 2005
18th of august.
within this two years, many things happened between the both of us. the major thing was our breakup last feb. since then, i never thought we would be celebrating each other's bday together again. but well, i'll not fail to send you bday wishes.
i hope you enjoyed your 16th bday back then. though i know there's stuffs you were unhappy abt. it was my first time celebrating my bf's bday so i had little idea abt what i was to do.
ok. enough of your bday 2 years ago.
you are finally 18. old enough to take care of yourself and your family. wait. let me take back your family. you learn how to take care of yourself first k. =). though it's offically legal for you to buy ciggs and alcohol everywhere, please cut down on them. they are bad for health. it's time you settle down too. ask yourself which girl you really wanna spend your life with. stick to JUST ONE. ONLY ONE. and dont make the wrong decision. never ever let your gf down alright. rmb a girl needs to be pampered, badly. =). take care. all the best.
once again,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEREK!
to people who might be wondering, do i still love him. my answer is no.
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i wonder when can i stop complaining.
didnt attend sch today coz i woke up late AGAIN. thanks to my itchy hand lah. i switched off my alarm and went back to sleep. anyway even if i went to school, i cant speak. oh. crap. life simply sucks lah. guess i'll go consult a doctor either tonight or tmr. i want my voice back lah. i'm getting so dead. i mean it's like fever comes after sore throat. i can sense im gonna be attacked by fever molecules or atoms or whatsoever lah. i know i wont like it.
just now patrick called when i was in the toilet. i dunno how he wanna put the project stuffs over at my place when im at my cousin's. and i might not even be attending sch tmr. it's like i might be unfit to attend lessons tmr, you see. nobody can predict what's gonna happen tmr alright.
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
since im a good daughter and a good sister, i went. =). the service was WOLS. bth. well, saw radz and chatted abit. while waiting for the bubble tea to be ready, i sat there and whined. they were taking far too long lah. i was impatient already. then suddenly someone asked, "your sister arh?" then i turned and looked towards that direction and to my surprise, it was zong ming. the way he looked at me and lia was funny. haha. know what he did? he lifted his hand up and looked at his watch then told me, "tmr is derek's birthday." [in chinese.] i told him i know. when the bubble tea was ready, i said bye to zong ming and walked back with lia.
"you know him?"
"yah."
"just now when he stand at the bubble tea shop there, i dont dare to look at him. i scared later he wanna beat me."
LOL. i swear she made me laugh. haha. guess it's becoz of his typical gangster look. =x.
oh shuddup amanda.
alright. i'll shuddup about the gangster stuff. i'll change topic. hmmm. yeah yeah. i know what!!! i must publicize about this sat's KIM POSSIBLE so the dramathon!!! weets. i cant wait k. 6 back to back episodes of kp and so the drama movie. im getting excited!!! how i wish it's sat now.
I KNOW WE'VE BEEN FRIENDS FOREVER.
lia said that she thinks i'll tear when watching so the drama. MAYBE? i haven even watched it yet. what i know is that it's gonna be a nice movie. i will enjoy my sat stucked at home. i wont mind staying home forever if kp is on tv 24/7. i swear i dont mind.
=).
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"oh. i overslept."
"why you always oversleep? one more time you will be debarred."
i rolled my eyes. i just couldn't be bothered.
"next week must come ar. last week."
MAI HUE LAN.
again, i skipped prsp tutorial without valid reason. too tired already plus this week i really overslept again. i woke up at like 10 plus when class supposedly start at 10. i was told, i missed a "show" during our 2 hours break. well well. i doubt i wanna witness it either lah.
i just gotta know when i just reached school like an hour ago that there's a dcnk test later. wow. so much for missing tutorial on monday. fark life lah. i think im gonna get a nice big egg later. who cares?
oh yah. i talked to mom abt dropping out now in the morning while taking my meal. she insisted i complete this sem before i could drop out. wth. i dont get what she wants leh. it's me studying, not her. i know obviously that i cant get anywhere far without a cert here in sg. BUT hey! i dont like my course already. *WHOOSH~ and my interests are all gone. for good and for real. i wont be determined to stay here and struggle with all the crap. mom says it's coz of my attitude. all i say is "I DONT CARE!" this is according to her lah. i agree somehow that my attitude is those boh chap type but hey! im born this way k. im made like this. i see no reason why i should change myself.
OH GOSH! im so wrong. i have to change my mai hue lan attitude quick before im finished. i mean it.
i seriously dunno what i want after dropping out. like what am i gonna do.
perhaps i should...
- go to work. [BUT HEY!!! HOW FAR CAN I GO?]
- take up another course. [LIKE WHAT? with my O level results, i swear i cant go anywhere! no point regretting already i know but still...]
- DIE. [dont you think im like a GOOD FOR NTH?! no point continue living what.]
im so confused. i really dunno how. im a let down lah.
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
i dunno why but i just dread going to school. it's like a chore to me. i hate school like i hate eating fruits. i dont think there's a need to go get an mc just becoz i dont wanna attend classes coz i will be wasting both time and money. time becoz i have to wait till it's my turn to get a chance to consult the doctor, money becoz im gonna throw away those medicine anyway. so i will just end up skipping school without valid reasons and soon get warning letters and whatsoever crap tp wants to gimme.
how i wish im still studying in oh-so-nice bds. nice becoz i dont need to give a shit whether i have an mc anot for not attending school and/or fear of getting warning letters. can slack like nobody's business. no need to do projects. at least not as many as the workload i have now. and we still got out very own table in the canteen. it's nice lah.
i want my life to be filled with colours again.
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i cant really rmb how many storybooks i have. but one thing i know for sure is that one of my favourite storybook is missing. that lovely THE LITTLE PRINCE. hais. i cant seem to rmb who i lent it to. it's like gone for good. if that person who borrowed it from me reads this, pls return it to me. i am missing it badly. i know i can always buy a new one but it's not gonna be the same again. that book is filled with many memories. aiyah. if really i dont get it back by the end of this year, im gonna get a new one and i promise it will never leave me.
gotta hand in many projects within these few weeks. i give up. i surrender. why make myself so stressed up and pissed off with all these dumb stuffs. yes. im saying that projects are dumb. especially projects that i have to do. im even more tempted to drop out quick. ARGH. FARK LIFE.
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Monday, August 15, 2005
hello?! why am i thinking about relationships out of a sudden?
ok. SHUDDUP AMANDA!
nono. i cant. i dont wanna shut up. i still have to continue. i dont wanna feel sorry. you know it's tough living life filled with regrets. i dont want life like this. i wanna be happy, remember? my life must be perfect. close to, at least.
at times, i must admit, i really wish i have a bf. at least i can have more love other than parental love. yet, im not prepared to commit. i feel im still too young for that. im only a 17tobe. yes, there are people who think 17 is the right year to start seeking for true love. but im not like everyone else. i wanna be loved but i dont want to get involved in true love. perhaps im thinking this way becoz i dont have anyone in mind currently. but i know even if i have one, i bet in awhile, feelings will all fade away. that's my weakness. plus i dont wanna hurt another guy already. neither do i wanna get hurt. what am i to do? i want love but i am afraid. can somebody tell me what is the best way out?
i sound so contradicting.
im just not prepared to give up my friends. in fact, i never wanna give them up. not for anyone. NEVER. im not so nice to wanna give my spare time to anyone. im selfish. i want them for myself. i know there are guys who want their gf by their side when they are not feeling well. but im not a nurse who knows how to look after anyone. i never will be that nice either. im not those gf material lah. no commitments please.
PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN. to me lah.
so i think i still have to say no to relationships. sorry for being so contradicting throughout.
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Sunday, August 14, 2005
things happen one by one lately. it's like all so suay. i dont understand what's wrong. just have to surrender to fate. well well. i just want everything to be fair. nobody should lose out. not my friends especially.
sometimes i dunno why love is so complicated. it's lines always get entangled. how to be sure if a guy is serious about you? how to know if he has no feelings for his ex or anyone other than you? or what if your friend falls in love with the one you love? or what if you have to choose between someone you really love to your bud? there are just so many questions i wanna ask. i really wanna know. perhaps this is one reason why i wont fall in love again. but still i am awaiting for the day im gonna have a perfect relationship. that guy, i know definitely must be older than me by at least a year. no more bfs of the same age.
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yeap. im finally back home. im very glad. after a long day out, it's time i get some rest already. but since my hair is farking wet, i shall blog before going to bed.
left home today at 4 plus. went to the busstop opposite my place to wait for pig. she picked me and together we went to far east.
SOMEONE, ASK ME WHAT WAS OUR PURPOSE OF GOING TO FEP.
well well. it's to eat at ramen ten. that's all about it. haha. like i mentioned in my previous post, im craving for ramen ten what. well, i ordered the can-say same old thing. yummy. it's been donkey years since i last eaten it. after eating we went walk walk coz we had nth in mind to do. dropped by at fang's place and sorta stayed there for kinda long. guess at least an hour. haha. took pics. =). shall post only 2 of them.
pig fang me.
one of miss zi lian's photo. her hair is this THICK. =x.
went ljs to eat chocolate pie and fries. left for grandlink after that coz neither me nor pig had anywhere in mind to head. took 7 there. yawns. tired. slacked there till 12plus. walked to a bus stop. saw 28 and just got up. scanned our ezlink cards then sat till song song till dunno who said, "this bus going toa payoh." wth. then we went to another bus stop. in the end we took bus to bedok inter coz no more buses to tamp. they ate at the coffee shop near the library. after that we 7-11ed. slacked outside. had entertainment from zhen yang and shan ji. i cant believe i have such a lame godbro. sometimes i really think zhen yang is crazy. haha. cant stop but laugh. you would get what i meant if you were there. haha. lameness.
hmmm. kinda lazy to blog further. hopefully nth's wrong with daddy. nights everyone. =).
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Friday, August 12, 2005
well, had a nice dream while napping just now. dreamt that i was eating. haha. as usual lah. i swear the food was great. too bad it was only a dream. shall eat later lah.
how i wish life was perfect. if only i didnt quarrel with mom the other day, things wont be so farked up now. though i know she's not biased, i still blamed her for it. i was wrong but i said that coz i was too pissed off. if now she wants to ignore me or whatsoever, i also have nth to do or say. so i guess im better off OUTSIDE.
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
ytd was national day. public holiday. =). met baobei to go walk walk at bugis. i bought 3 bottoms and a bag. lalalas. boarded the mrt that the rest was on and headed for marina bay together. we sure looked like idiots k. i swear. especially when we actually waited for the bus at a stop where the stand shows "400A ALIGHTING ONLY". wtf. but well. i'll just shuddup lah. it's over. we went to chong pang for makan. 17 of us so the total was $204. gx came later so he needn't pay. i swear i didnt enjoy that meal last night. i wasnt full yet dont have the mood to eat. oh yah. the fireworks last night was pretty. extremely beautiful. =). after eating, we were like stucked. some went bowling, some went billarding. then alot shit stuffs happened lah. waited like idiots. pissed off k. but well, i'll shuddup again. in the end when we decided to go changi, we took like dunno how many donkey seconds to decide who to share a cab. me, baobei, pl and gx shared one. and i swear we were suay k. shant elaborate. i'll just shuppud once more. think positively. played hide and seek. lalalas~ our hiding place is perfect k! =))). after that played DARE. i tio with sx, gx and murphy's stead. [dunno her name.] we went to the 2nd level to shine light. i swear i couldnt see. my vision was very blur. when going down, i was at the back, i almost fell coz i missed a step. i ended up sort of like jumping down that 3 steps. thank god i didnt fall. after everything, went to the coffee shop. slacked there till around 730. shared cabbie with gx and sx. hsh. =))).
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Monday, August 08, 2005
i know there wont be a chance you will be reading this post but i just feel i should dedicate this to you. [even if you have a chance to, i believe you wont know what im writing about coz it's all in english. perhaps i should have written it years back, before you forget almost everything after you woke up after you were in coma for so long. at least, at that time, i have the confidence you can read this. =).]
close to 17 years back, you held me a very grand one month old celebration. i sure was blessed to have you as my grandpa. you doted on us all. i could tell that you didnt have the prejudiced thinking which many grandparents normally have. you loved your granddaughters as much as you loved your grandsons. though i didnt know a thing about my one month celebration but i know you threw that levish party just for me coz i was told so.
i guess there still were many things you did for me when i was young but i dont know what they exactly were. i was too young to understand anything. but when i was old enough to understand a thing, after lia was born i think, the most memorable thing you did was to bring us to sentosa. i remember you came home earlier than usual, around 12pm, made sure we kids had our lunch then suddenly ordered the maids to change all of us. i cant remember how many of us were there but i know 2 maids came along, ah mah too. but i know from my family, only ken and i were there. you asked us all to get into the car and you just drove us without letting us know where will we be heading to. i just know all of us were very excited. =). when we finally reached, you did a head count before walking us to the underwater world. you bought us a gift each after we took a tour to see those marine creatures and brought us to somewhere near the underwater world to have some snacks. after everything, we headed for home. our parents were waiting for us. i guess they didnt know that you had the intention to bring us to sentosa coz everyone asked their child, "where did you all go?" then after we answered, our parents gave us a "ARE YOU SURE?" look. =). i sure enjoyed myself. so did my cousins, i bet.
about a year later, my family moved out. we didnt have our surprise sentosa trips anymore. i dont get to see my cousins daily. =(. i didnt have you nor ah mah to play with too. the most i get to see the both of you only on sundays. sunday mornings back then were like a routine. every week we would go to the same restaurant for dim sum. after dim sum, we either go to the country club, the zoo, sentosa or shopping centres. it continued till the restaurant shifted. we didnt get to go out together that often again. =(.
in 1998, you wanted us to shift back with you all. i seriously wanted to but mommy refused. i dunno whether you know her reasons for not wanting to shift back. i dunno if you blame her for it. but i have to let you know that she really has her reasons behind it and i understand it so i hope you do too. since then, i started putting up at your house during vactions. you ordered the maid to make the room special just for me, made sure i slept well and that i was full. you even cooked mee sua for me as requested. i really love eating the food you cooked.
sometimes you come over to our house to stay coz you wanna see us. and everytime before you go to bed, you would be holding onto some papers which you learnt english with. you sure would finish at least one page before turning in. you taught me the meaning of "huo tao lao xue dao lao". =).
there are just too many things to write. i shall skip some parts.
the last time i heard you call my name without thinking who i am was on ah mah's bday in 1999. the cajjl had a bday celebration for ah mah. after cutting the cake, you told us you wanted to go to bed already coz you were having a headache. mommy came to pick me up and i told her about it. she went to buy some tonics for you the next morning. she told me she would be dropping them at your house after dropping me at school. but the next thing i knew was, after school mommy came to pick me and ken, you had stroke. everyday after school, mommy would bring us to mt.e to accompany you. talk to you when you were still in coma. all of us were hoping that you woke up soon. it took you a few months to wake up. even when you were awake, you couldnt remember all of us. especially your grandchildren. despite us telling you many times who we were, you dont seem to remember. after you were discharged, daddy made it a point that we gotta visit you close to everyday. well, at least when he is in singapore. yet after so long, you still dont know my name.
ah gong, i really miss your mee sua. when can i eat it again? just once more and i will be contented. hais. why am i asking for so much when you cannot even remember me? it's painful to have to witness this in my life. can you please get well soon? i beg you. remember us all again.
with love,
amanda
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Sunday, August 07, 2005
it's been almost 3 months since i last got into a relationship. this 3 months of single hood was as fun as those months back. i tell you, it's fun being single. after trying out those few relationships, i finally told myself not to play around already. i promise i'll not get into another relationship till i really find the right guy. i meant my Mr. Right aka Mr. Perfect. that someone who will make me get oh-so-worried for him. someone who i can cry for without forcing tears out of my eyes. this is what i call true love from amanda's heart. =).
well actually not so much of making me worry and cry. what i ask for is my heart to beat fast when i see him and my mind to be filled with images of just him. he too, on another hand has to get really serious about me. love me more than i love him. it must always be this case. =). be there for me whenever i need him. yes, this sure sounds perfect.
you know, i definitely will hate him like hell if he wants to meet me everyday. i need time for myself too alright. i believe i will break up with him real soon if he pesters me to meet daily. but before breaking up, be prepared, i'll give him a taste of my attitude. woohoo~ im thinking too far. but i will still continue thinking. hmmm. we should only meet up 3 times per week. a day for movies, a day for dining out at some high class restaurants and a day for shopping. weets. sounds great right? it sure will be. i'm waiting for the day my perfect boyfriend arrives.
i'm yearning for the 999 roses, cuddly 1m tall teddy, million chocolates, ai qing meals, love letters and more. but most importantly is to have his whole heart. i will carve my name on his heart, lock it up and throw the key into the deep blue sea. he'll be mine forever. for good. for real.
lalala~ i know i think too much. i know it sounds like im dreaming. well, i am. haha. it's good to dream kks. =). in the meantime i shall just be like this till someone melts me heart.
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
that's us. =). [blame peng for his lousy scanning skills.]
mango and patrick.
wilson carry vainnie peng.
kelvin the big bully. look at me. so ke lian.
it's obvious my class dont only consist of the 6 of us. there's still others but i dunno where are the other photos coz they are in different folders. shall go take more pictures in school to post it up. those pictures will definitely bring me some fond memories i believe. =). i hope i wont regret after dropping out.
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i know some of you must be wondering who is kim possible and how she looks like. well, she's perfect. [at least, to me.]
that's her in her cheerleading suite. =).
this is kp's style. =).
she's pretty kks. wear simi also swee. plus she's like an all-rounder. i envy her loads k. i know she's only a cartoon character but who says humans cant get envious of cartoon characters?
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dont they just look great?
stitch is experiment no. 626 and he has 625 more cuzzins to come. every of the 626 experiments has a place it can call it's own. like stitch belongs to lilo. awww. so sweet. =). they're darlings. my darlings. i love them to bits.
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Friday, August 05, 2005
saw baobei's msg today asking me not to go school. i also felt like can? but today gotta compile the iiso stuffs with my dear team mates so gotta come lor. my bro pon school today. he tempted me to too. wohoo. but im good girl lah kks. arbo i wont be here now.
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Thursday, August 04, 2005
well well. ytd angie was so cute. she took ken's mp3 while he was asleep and switched it on. then she suddenly went "i like to move it move it" and shaked to the beat. i swear she looked cute. it made me love her more. =). but still i must say, i wont want a daughter like her in future. LOL. hmmm. she also looked pinchable when she sang bad boy and dont phunk with my heart. haha. i tell you, i was surprised. who would ever expect a 4 year old kid to do this? talking about her, lia kept urging angie to lock her pinky to hers. it's to be a prove that there's nth to do between the both of them. no more sistership. which made me scold lia for being so crazy. luckily angie was smart enough not to lock pinkies with lia. when grandaunt asked her, "is san jie your friend?" she replied, "no, she is not my friend. she's my sister." i was =). nobody's like angie at home, she sure understands things better than us all as a 4 year old.
today's cold. i've been shivering. how i wish somebody could bring me a jacket to keep me warm. ps: especially come down tp to pass me k. i swear i'll love the person for at leasst a month. LOL. ok. craps lah. gtg anyway. tata.
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
haven been sleeping well lately. dunno what's wrong with me. you'll get what i mean when you see me. i feel so unlike myself. i wonder if im possessed. well, i know im not lah. even if i am, i doubt i'll write it out. i hate me in reality. i love myself in lalaland. how i wish i could sleep forever. it'll be so great. =).
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005
i think ytd's food haven been digested yet. still feel kinda bloated. i swear i was full ttm after ytd's buffet. so full till i didnt really have the strength to even walk. we had fun laughing while eating. well, it's expected lah. was extremely happy. so glad that we finally could gather together again. it's been like dunno how many donkey years since we last met up for a meal. i want more of this. once a week perhaps? =). <3 4 pretties 1 handsome. shall blog again soon. gonna edit my template. tata.
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