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Thursday, October 20, 2005
NO. im not envious becoz they found their other half. im, in fact, envious of them being able to last in a relationship. yes, im speaking of being together for a year or more. no breaks and patch type. how come they can find someone to love for that long while i cant?
just take a look at my relationships.
the longest was like a year. plus breaks and patch ups. but if you minus those, it's barely 9 months. our love was like shit. quarrelled almost everyday for one period. now i think back, i dunno what made me still love him deep back then. -.-"
the shortest was 8 days. i dunno what i was doing. what i really wanted. the mood wasnt there so i just said break. yes, i was a freak.
the rest... none lasted for more than 100 days, not even 50. just imagine alright.
compare mine with people's 1 yr plus.
where's my courage to love? to accept? to believe? everything's gone. will any even come back?
oh pls. someone pls just pull me back. bring me back things i've lost during the battle. it's tough when i have nth with me.
i've got my family. i've got my friends. but my life is incomplete still. coz im missing my soulmate. pouts*SOULMATE.a. helps me retrieve everything i lost.b. goes thru thick and thin with me.c. loves my family. (((:d. accepts my friends.e. sings to/for me.f. ability to wake me up.g. dont stop me from eating. *winksh. comfort me when i cry.i. tell me stories/sing me lullaby when i cant get to slp.j. gives me freedom.k. has his way to deal with my attitude. =xl. as sweet as hershey's kisses.m. swimming khaki. (((:n. cooks for/with me. *smileso. my form of entertainment.p. watches disney channel with me. =).q. helps me control my hp bill.r. never unreasonable.s. playboy.flirts.t. surprises me.u. accepts me for who i am.v. handles me with care. IM FRAGILE LA.w. colours my life.x. sincerely in love with me.y. guys are always better than girls.z. all of the above.
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