Tuesday, January 31, 2006
yes. perfect.
i dont know how to describe this.
but all i can say now is
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!
fark those assholes who made me not as happy as before.
i hate you all la.
KNNBCCB.
yes. that shall be my last vulgaritiy of the year.
shall control myself.
i just dunno what to say.
i dont know where to start.
i wanna express things out but it's not as easy as it looks.
how i really wish life could be perfect.
sighs.
brandon darling is such a cutie.
i love him many many la.
i swear im gonna miss him lots.
talking abt him reminds me of gary.
i miss him alot ok!
i wonder when can i next see him.
both of them are such lovely darlings.
they make me SMILE. =).
at least im a lil happier than just now.
i hope my happiness level will increase tmr.
tata.
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Saturday, January 28, 2006
im done with work.
FINALLY.
kept my promise to help till the 27th.
i struggled and managed.
to me, i've done well.
better than before.
first job that i managed to stay on for 18 days.
thoughout this period, i met alot of customers.
and the poor customers were very unlucky to have met me.
i've got this attitude no customers could tolerate.
trust me, if i was the customer being served by AMANDA LEE, i'll die.
i farking could tell them i no need them to buy if they wanna ask so much.
i farking could scold them farking bitch right at their face.
i farking could diao them when they ask me for repeated size, different design.
i farking could tell them not to waste my time if they dont wanna buy.
i farking could raise my voice when they request another new pair when i actually was packing a new one for them.
i just could farking do anything as long as im not happy.
so what if customers are right?
that's their business.
when they piss me off, they are wrong.
the best moments were the slacking times we all had.
talked, bitched and had fun.
working with them was fun but having farked up customers was like shit.
(ok. fine. i guess it's not the customers problem. it's actually myself. the way i look at things especially.)
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
just got home around an hour ago.
went to celebrate my grandma's bday.
had the loveliest dinner ever.
=).
supposed to go to yk's chalet.
but, im sorry.
im not in the mood.
dui bu qi once again.
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY.
i hope the pain just end FAST.
i hate to control my tears from falling.
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im finally having my off today.
it's a special day today la.
=).
yay yay yay.
i finally managed to have more than 11 hours of sleep today.
im so happy la.
these few days only slept for like the most 9 hours plus only.
im poor thing right?
yes yes.
haha.
well, im quite happy working now.
the people i met there are nice.
the bosses dote on me.
i feel so luckyyy.
=))).
since they are such wonderful people, i see no reason why i should quit halfway.
i promised i'll help till the 27th of this month.
and i'll keep my words.
im now like running about.
can say extremely busy.
but i've got no choice at all.
coz the company's in need of manpower.
that day work ended LATE.
uncle BIKED me home.
i swear i wanted to cry la.
first time im on a bike and there wont be the next.
mom got a shock when i told her i came home on a bike.
she warned me NEVER to sit on bikes in future.
yeah yeah.
i wont.
my head will feel heavy la.
haha.
haven seen the usual peeps since the first day of 2006.
i miss them la.
esp baobei and handsome.
my two lovables.
LOVE THEM LOADS LA.
dont worry, im perfectly normal.STRAIGHT.cant i love my besties?
=).
and of coz, i miss LANHONG la.
i so wanna fry seaweed chicken, fries, onion rings and hams together!!!
(actually can just forget about the onion rings. =x.)and stuffing ourselves to PIZZA AND DRUMLETS.
yumms.
my life is not gonna be complete without them.
i love them la!
i cant wait for daddy-o to come back!!!
im looking forward to the 26th.
then yay, hey hey.
the pictures!!!
=).
i love my family many many.
my love; gG.
my life; LANHONG.
my everything; FAMILY.
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Friday, January 13, 2006
haven been updating for quite some time already.
started working on monday.
within these few days many farked up things happened.
dont wanna mention it since it's already over.
i just hope nth will go wrong anymore.
i was asked today when will i marry.
dont you think it's a wth question?!
im like only 18 to be.
why should i even think about marriage?
zzz.
and seriously i dont at all think WE look like a couple.
look at him...
he's the opposite of my perfect bf.
imagine.
AND,
i dont wanna get beaten up.
coz that young lad is a father to be.
ok. enough. now i have a question.
wait i suddenly forgot what i wanted to ask.
er.
eh.
hmmm.
here goes.
why must people stead when there's love?
can't they like love without the status?
coz i personally dont believe in steading.
firstly, i dont wanna commit.
secondly, i get sick too easily.
thirdly, i get turned off too easily.
and many more to list.
anyway, im really falling sick soon.
shall go to lalaland now.
BYE!
=)
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
i dunno what's wrong these few days.
im grumpier than usual.
every tiny things im not pleased with, i'll scream.
then i'll have that urge to slap someone.
wtf man.
also when someone calls at the wrong time, i'll shout.
i mean can those assholes gimme a break?!
didnt i like mention im not in the mood already?
haven gone out with the usual people already.
im lazy.
also they didnt call me up and i too didnt call them to ask where they are.
so, life now is about being at home.
either tv-ing, computer-ing, phone-ing, sms-ing or sleeping.
the slack life of amanda lee.
i do sometimes leave the house awhile for a car ride or smth.
i need a break somehow la.
going out sometimes can be a chore.
coz the thought of going out to do things i dont like SUCK.
perhaps i should go and work to ease my boredom.
but still, im lazy.
ytd baobei told me she broke her arm.
omfg.
it's like i seriously dont know what to say.
it'll be so inconvenient for her.
if she didnt blade, she wont have to spend chinese new year with that cast.
i just hope she gets well soon.
grandpa helped me fulfil 2 of my 2006 wishes.
thank you.
=).
btw,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMY!
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Thursday, January 05, 2006
my mood still isnt on the right track as yet.
but i can tell it's definitely better.
im deciding now on what im gonna do this year.
i cannot possibily be slacking all the way over at home.
it's not that it isnt nice to be at home.
just that i cannot be doing nth at all what.
i have to move on with life.
went to see babyy reyes.
he's so adorable la!!!
fei fei sucked ok.
he scratched my leg.
=(.
i think it sounds tough being someone's daughter-in-law.
i have people now telling me to watch my attitude and all the crap.
to save myself from unreasonable mother-in-laws or those who expect too much.
im told to change my bad habit and that's being lazy la.
i'll try ok.
anyway grandma/grandaunt tell me so much oso no use.
im not even prepared to get married what.
-.-".
get what i mean?
i dont even wanna date now.
so conclusion is wait till i have a bf then say la.
ok. enough said.
time for dinner.
tata.
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
im seriously not in the mood.
dont talk to me.
i wanna scream badlyyy.
tears are on the verge of falling.
why am i like that?
recently just so many things happened.
almost all were unexpected.
what am i supposed to do?
how to face the shits?
i hate life.
can i just jump down and die?
somebody come save me from this cruel place.
i dont think i can take it any longer la.
i wanna breakawayyy.
it just seem to me that i can no longer be as happy as i was.
i dont get why is it so.
i mean like i have nth much to worry about now yet im not as happy as before.
hey it's like wtf ok.
i think it has smth to do with...
aiya i dunno what also la.
it may be the weather.
it may be due to lack of slp.
it may be becoz it's gonna be time of the month.
it may be this year.
perhaps 2006 isnt my year.
things dont seem to be going on smoothly.
like say some asshole pissed me off by rubbing foam on my face.
the very first thing i was pissed about in 2006.
or it might also be becoz i miss 2005.
but of coz not the last part of 2005, having indecisive friends who end up at downtown while we were at town.
that sucked la.
there are so many maybes.
im poor thing la.
i thought a new year would mean a better start.
but it seem to me that im so wrong.
=(.
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Monday, January 02, 2006
im no longer the lil girl you all once looked after.
im no longer the lil girl who dont understand what adults are doing.
im no longer who i was in the past.
im growing up.
the problem couldnt be solved.
i swear it doesnt matter to me anymore.
it's just so simple.
as from this year, you people are no longer related to me.
not in any ways.
dont ever expect me to even say a hi to any of you.
this mail im typing now will be the end of everything.
ask for no more.
coz you people are worthy of nth.
i hate you all.
ALOT.
im no longer gonna be that good lil girl.
NEVER EVER.
i mean, why should i?
when you people are nth to me.
just get out of my life.
i want nth to do with you all.
i'd rather die.
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i sure was tired.
i went swimming at around 11 this morning.
a family gathering la.
oh ya. btw i made my own breakfast today.
=))).
after swimming, we all headed for grandma's place.
had our lunch.
i liked the bond we had.
something i wont get all the time from particularly the other side.
grandma cooked stuffs i really liked.
things i'll never get to eat back home.
after that we sat at the living room to watch tv.
grandpa was like doing some kungfu moves.
(fighting rather)
so i asked him what he was doing.
then he answered me dunno what and said those moves could kill.
i was laughing like mad la.
then he started telling us his experience.
he was almost robbed by a group of 4 around 16 years back.
one of them was his fren's son.
wtf. -.-".
he used that fighting move i saw him practicing to defend himself.
luckily he didnt kill la.
the guy only vomited the white foam.
police came and bye bye to the baddies.
all of them were imprisoned.
but before they were really sentenced, grandpa was robbed AGAIN.
(this time, it's robbed. for real.)
i wonder if they were the same group of people.
grandpa cant tell coz he was robbed in the lift.
the people stopped the lift at lvl 9.
(the old lifts dont stop at every lvl. his stopped only at 1, 5 and 9.)
switched off the lights in the lift and asked grandpa for his money.
he had no choice but to give becoz the person threatened him with kerosene.
but luckily he only gave half what he had in his pocket.
so that was around 2K.
after that the robber asked for his ring and watch.
but grandpa only gave the ring coz watch was given by his daughter.
the robber also cannot see what he was wearing.
after the robber got what he wanted, he just left without letting my grandpa off.
he was still stucked in the lift.
wth.
so my grandpa used his walking stick to knock the lift until people came to save him.
(it was 12+am hor. people who are pig all sleep till song song liao.)
after that police come ask him what happen and all the crap.
asked him how the robbers looked like and shit stuffs.
he said he dunno.
then the police kept asking why.
(come on man. so dark see what?!)
i was thinking should be the same group of people who failed to rob him the last time.
coz they might feel buay song.
didnt manage to rob him still must go jail and one of them was beaten up till like dunno what.
ok. but whatever it is, im glad they only robbed my grandpa and not take his life away.
what's 5K compared to his life?
NTH.i love my grandpa.
(my mother's father.)
and yay. tmr he's bringing me to eat my fave food.
=D!
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
hey everyone,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!this year's countdown is PATHETIC.it's nth compared to sleeping at home.seriously got damn pissed off by the organisation.if i knew it would turn out that shitty, i bet i wont wanna even leave my house.counting down while watching disney channel sounds nice.met yimin, eslynn, potato and gx at princess upstairs.after they were done with billarding, we went to mac to eat.i bought student meal.finished with the help of potato and gx. =).i didnt waste food hor. =D!training to town sucked la.potato and gx stopped at bugis to meet ben and co.while three of us went to city hall.KNOW WHAT?! the two assholes said they'll be going fisherman with the other guys.HEY WHAT THE FARK!fine whatever.headed for somerset to meet pig and pl.saw gilselle and joel.then esther they all.we all hid at the telephone booth.lalalas.saved for awhile.went to ljs.pig and pl ate combo 1, yimin and eslynn had chocolate pie.after that decided to leave for downtown east.BUT we wanted to buy the spray first.grrr. got sprayed like siao la.esp yimin.i couldnt even tell it was her lor.was on the phone. cant you be a lil more understanding?forget it la.FINE.in the end bought the spray from plex.cabbed to downtown.the uncle very funny lor.the fun started again at the techno party.we sprayed them.hurhur.in the end they also go and buy to spray us.-.-".me and pig went to sit.left when all were done.those who pangsehed were gone.those who wanted to go home went off.the rest of us walked to 24h.they played blackjack till aroun 6.-.-".farking tired la.still must wait for jh and potato to finish their food.YAWNS.anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SON! =)!
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