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Thursday, February 16, 2006
being a teenager isnt easy. the ups and downs one has to face is inevitable. there are just too much to juggle with. from studies to family, friends and even relationships. far too much to cope. however, all it takes is to be self-disciplined and organised. yes, i know the peer influences from people around might be so strong that you cannot avoid. but still, it's about yourself. you can stand against wrong and speak up for yourself. not everything everyone says is right. even if majority says a particular thing is right, it doesnt exactly mean that way! are you trying to tell me that out of 10 people, 9 take drugs, the remaining 1 should do the same too? NO! it's never that way. and shall never be! so pls learn.
anyway, nobody is restricting you from hanging out with your present group of friends. making friends is your choice but just be sure of the people you mix around with. whether they are good or bad influences. dont ever let anyone ruin you! we only wanna see you change for the better and not the worst.
i could see a tremendous change in you in just a month. mom thinks so too. WHY? all the coming back late, screamings and shoutings, chatting on the phone for long hours and every vulgarities that come out from your mouth really hurt us. everyone in the family cares for you. dont you realise? cant you actually feel it? i seriously dont know what can i use to describe the disappointment in all of us.
i know you might be comparing me with yourself. the why jie jie has this, why jie jie can this and all the why jie jie this and that you have in mind. look, it's somehow the age thing. im 18 this year while you are only 14. frankly speaking, i was like you back then. fought for what i wanted and caused myself to be rebellious in a way. oppossed to whatever dad and mom wanted of me. what did i get in return? i lost the trust and hope dad and mom used to have in me. i dont think you would want anything like this to happen to yourself. to have them regain the trust again isnt a simple thing. trust me, you will eventually hate yourself for landing up in a state like as if you lost both parents. al the freedom you want can be give, but step by step. i've learnt this lesson and i dont wanna see you repeating it after me. as you grow up, more and more freedom will be given. it's just a matter of time. wait just for a few years. it isnt a great deal anyway.
learn how to respect people if you wanna be respected. teachers are not always right but they ought to be treated with respect by students no matter what. dont tell us you think teachers should respect you without you doing likewise to them.
there are so much more you will face. you have to overcome them all on your own. but always remember you have the whole family behind you. =).
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