Thursday, April 27, 2006
i hate it when guys approach girls to get numbers.
i really really hate it alot.
so pls, there are a million more other girls out there, dont ever come to me.
if we are meant to know each other, we'll be linked somehow through our own circle of friends.
i believe in fate so dont push the limit.
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
i just finished helping my sis with her sushi making.
so lame.
i tell you, i wanted to cry while helping.
those i made looked like shit.
my mom was like freaking out when she saw mine.
hey! im nice enough to help ok.
but i know that im lousy at it.
imagine la.
the rice all stucked to my hands and EVEN LEGS.
i dunno how i managed to do that.
all i know is i enjoyed the seaweed nibblings.
haha.
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Friday, April 21, 2006
motor rides daily.
guess i'll soon get used to it.
but i know i must never let mom/dad know.
=x.
sushi sushi sushi.
yummy yummy yummy.
that's what i have daily.
all thanks to uncle.
his weird thinkings and logics.
nobody could ever understand.
well, not me at least.
anyway, both of us are counting down to the end of the fair.
which boss will count down with you and hope that the fair ends soon?
=).
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
the princess.
the king.
the queen.
the funny way things are mentioned.
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Monday, April 17, 2006
great.
VERY VERY GREAT!
im like supposed to be like working tmr onwards AGAIN.
they're in need of people again.
it's the same excuse they use all the time.
sometimes i wish i never joined that company at first.
though i must admit i met alot of interesting people.
people i never thought i would meet in life.
im gonna miss sleeping long hours!
sorry joven.
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
sometimes i really wanna know myself better.
i realise im drifting away from myself.
i know this sounds totally stupid BUT that's how i feel.
as in my heart and mind dont work together somehow.
im feeling so sick.
stomach upset recently.
i wanna vomit but nth comes out.
i wanna shit but nth comes out too.
it's really very painful!!!
anyway, today i saw one aunt.
i was totally disgusted by her.
she came out of the toilet cubicle without zipping up her pants.
she only did so outside.
after zipping, she just walked out of the toilet.
WITHOUT WASHING HER HANDS!!!YUCKS!
I M M U N E D
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
though i might not be seeing you people as often,
i still wanna tell you all that i care and love you all as much.
PEILI
someone i find no difficulties talking to.
and i must admit, i feel very comfortable whenever im with her.
though we contact SO much lesser than before, i know our hearts are still close to one another.
from primary one till now, and always.
CASSANDRA
a person who shouldnt be disappearing so often.
i often feel she's jumping in and out of my life.
too busy with her bf, no time for me.
someone who never failed to lend me her listening ear since sec one.
only she could stand me whine all day.
(:
SHIYING
someone i spent the most of the time with since sec four.
skipped lessons and school together.
we did just SO MANY things together, i dont think i have enough time to list them all out.
no amount of words can express the closeness and how much she means to me.
from the right and left, to the lion and tiger.
it's gonna last more than a lifetime.
YIMIN
another khaki since sec four.
it used to be chan, bernard, pig, herself and i.
the crazy people who pool, town and movie together.
often came to my place to stay back then.
esp after late hang-outs like the first few och and chionging trips.
someone i can talk to too.
it will last more than forever.
TING
the meetups, the mahjong sessions.
the girl fun we had together.
(:
the joy she brought to brighten up me and my fellow gfs' lives.
we'll be partners for life.
SUSHEN
her craps, her slow reactions and her blurness make me smile.
another mahjong khaki who can cook.
BUT QUITE DANGEROUS!
her hokkien makes me giggle.
she's always disturbed and she'll forever be.
AMY
tuition khaki back in 2004.
whenever i had question i dont understand,
she never failed to help.
someone who can sit and wait for a game of mahjong to end, quietly without complains.
how nice.
(:
these girls are the love of my life.
i miss them and love them.
ALOT.
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
i feel like a small kid AGAIN.
lol.
class was alright.
pig and i had chicken rice after that.
ting's mom picked us up and dropped us at her place.
and we started doing our stuffs.
packing i should say.
after that, we mahjonged.
muahahaha.
around 10 plus we started to do smth each.
an experience indeed.
BECOZ WE ARE PARTNERS.
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
have lost contact with the outside world.
i've been home all these while.
life at home is about online shopping, tving, eating and sleeping.
my social life-gone.
im just too lazy.
plus im not sure about stuffs.
you know, the pig dog thingy.
im lousy at coping with such stuffs.
i decided i should give it a miss.
when yimin asked me where was i lately, i told her i was stucked in a tampon.
there's so many things to be done.
i wanna complete it in the shortest possible time.
but i already took too long.
FAR TOO LONG.
for that, amanda shall be ROARED at.
that day when i was sitting in front of my mom, she suddenly laughed.
i stared at her and she said while chuckling, "your brows look really very ugly."
then i just stared again.
she went, "next time dont pluck on your own already."
then i told her i wont then she said she wanna do smth to my brows.
i just smiled, said good night,
and fled.
i know it would hurt too much, i decided to give it a miss.
my mom is those impatient sort.
later she pluck halfway i tear too much she'll tell me forget it.
i dont wanna take this kinda risk.
shall go do my brows soon.
growing up is what i hate most about life.
the changes you have to go through can be really bloodsucking.
if i could, i wanna remain as a kid forever.
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yay yay yay!
i won the battle today.
LOL.
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Monday, April 03, 2006
havent been feeling really good these few days.
stomach upset and migrane.
reasons to why i think life sucks.
the routine's back.
sleeping late. waking up late. eating late.
everything's late.
wanting back an early to bed, early to rise habit isnt that simple.
life is SCREWED.
i was thinking, perhaps i dont love myself enough.
had a very weird dream last night.
the people in the dream-people i'll least expect to dream of.
it's so fake.
well, it is fake i guess.
dreams seldom come true.
i read some blogs and here comes the boyfriend thing again.
my greatest problem:
i want a PERFECT boyfriend.
i see my ex boyfriends either not good-looking enough or good for nth.
so i dumped them.
AND NOW,
im thinking IF any of them become a very successful whatever in future, how much im gonna hate myself.
or maybe if they go for plastic surgery and become SO GOOD LOOKING, how much i'll regret.
but for once, i think i should feel glad.
ONE of my ex now is really TOO HORRIBLE LOOKING.
uglier than before.
so i think im sorta BLESSED.
=).
i know people reading must be cursing me but i dont give a damn.
this is how realistic i am and life is.
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Saturday, April 01, 2006
1st of april.
yes, that's it.
april fool's day.
im trying to be very careful.
i dont wanna be fooled.
ytd tk asked me out.
my mind was ARE YOU TRYING TO FOOL ME?
i know i might be thinking too much but that's the way it is.
the fact is IM OVER PARANOID.
before that, pig called and told me about movie and bbq today.
i didnt think about the april fool's day thing coz i sorta forgot the date.
then after she hung and all, i was thinking if it was an april fool's joke.
lol.
i know im thinking too much.
but after agreeing to go for movie and bbq, i realised today is my grandpa's bday.
i ought to celebrate his bday with the family.
i've missed too many 1st april celebrations with him.
i decided i shall give the movie and bbq a miss.
ok. the most i'll turn up for the bbq after dinner.
we'll see.
after all, there's smth that's telling me i shouldn't go.
something more than just being fooled on april fool's.
but i shall just shuddup abt the reason.
it isn't good to name it here.
to me, somethings are better left UNSAID.
was changing my blogskin halfway.
too lazy to complete everything.
shall do it SLOWLY.
anyway i dont have any inspirations today.
all i wanna do now is to relax my eyes.
I SERIOUSLY LOOK LIKE A PANDA!
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