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Monday, April 03, 2006
stomach upset and migrane.
reasons to why i think life sucks.
the routine's back.
sleeping late. waking up late. eating late.
everything's late.
wanting back an early to bed, early to rise habit isnt that simple.
life is SCREWED.
i was thinking, perhaps i dont love myself enough.
had a very weird dream last night.
the people in the dream-people i'll least expect to dream of.
it's so fake.
well, it is fake i guess.
dreams seldom come true.
i read some blogs and here comes the boyfriend thing again.
my greatest problem:
i want a PERFECT boyfriend.
i see my ex boyfriends either not good-looking enough or good for nth.
so i dumped them.
AND NOW,
im thinking IF any of them become a very successful whatever in future, how much im gonna hate myself.
or maybe if they go for plastic surgery and become SO GOOD LOOKING, how much i'll regret.
but for once, i think i should feel glad.
ONE of my ex now is really TOO HORRIBLE LOOKING.
uglier than before.
so i think im sorta BLESSED.
=).
i know people reading must be cursing me but i dont give a damn.
this is how realistic i am and life is.
emotion-less
